All time low
I've officially reached an all-time low today. I'm 6 dpo on our second month of Clomid and have the usual side effects...sore boobs, bloated, lower backache. I had these exact same symptoms last cycle with a bfn.
Over the past few weeks, Matt and I have been talking about adopting a puppy. I've searched petfinder.com, craigslist.com and our local classifieds. When I called Matt earlier to let him know that our local Humane Society is hosting an adopt-a-thon this weekend (free adoptions with food donations), Matt very clearly said no because we aren't ready for a dog yet. He's right...we don't have a crate/kennel, leash, food, etc. But as soon as we hung up, I started to cry. At that point, it dawned on me that my desire for a puppy was just part of my need to parent something. I need to feel needed. We've been ttc since Dec. 2007 and it feels like we're never going to have a child. I just want to be a mom.
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Aw sweetie, I'm so sorry you feel so craptastic today :( I totally understand... I am sort of obsessed with dogs (we have rescued 3 of our own) and it does help the pain a little, but ultimately it just masks the fact that I'm sad about not having any children. Hang in there girl.
Hi there! Sorry that I have been gone for a while and not been posting on my blog. Life has been busy around here and moving at lightning speed. I am actually just getting the chance to get on and catch up on my bloggie friends and their pages.
I know how you feel, I have been there. My heart hurts right along with yours. Puppy fever has hit me more that I care to admit. But, just like you, I realize that it is not the answer that I am looking for, only a "bandaid" to cover up my hurting heart.
My thoughts and prayers will continue to be with you as always.
Hugs and blessings,
Stacey
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